I love this quote!

I was reading one of my many AP books and I found this quote and LOVED it..

"From all we know, every primate baby is designed to be physically attached to someone who will feed, protect and care for it, and teach it about being human-they have been adapted over millions of years to expect nothing less."

I don't know why I like this so much. I think it's because its another one of those things that validates how I feel about parenting. Its natural and we're evolved to parent this way so why would I want to parent any other way than what feels "right" instinctively? After hearing people criticize me it's always nice to read something like this.

wisconsin update and well as other stuff

So Saturday our car got broken into, I'm still pretty upset. I just can't understand people who steal.. but, I know it happens and hey, it could have been a lot worse. We've been "carless" since Saturday since the window is busted and there was glass everywhere. Mark cleaned it out today and drove it to work but I don't feel comfortable driving in case a piece of glass we missed flies back and hits Ryland.. good news is tomorrow it will be fixed. YAY! Bad news, we'll be out $200. bleh.. like we have an extra $200 to spend.

I walked 6+ miles today. My feet are officially sore. Since Mark had the car for work, I had to walk to city hall to apply for the homestead tax break or something like that. Pretty much next year we'll save $200 on taxes or something, I promised my dad i'd do it. So anyways, I walked there (just about 3 miles) and then we walked to the park closer to that part of town. I think all the flooding created extra mosquitos. We got half eaten by bugs within 5 minutes so we didn't stay long. I walked through campus and took Ryland to see the horses that are at the campus barn. He even pet one, although I don't think he completely understood the whole concept, but hey, It made my day. 

Mark called me today to tell me he has an interview for ALL the Wisconsin jobs available so July 14 & 15th we'll be making a family trip. I'm pretty excited. Although the idea of spending HOURS in a car with Ryland doesn't sound like very much fun this is a great step for our family. We'll be spending the night in kenosha, Wi, which is about 20 mins from where I grew up. So I called my friend and told her she HAD to drive down that Monday night to see me. I haven't seen her in almost a year so i'm so happy! Tuesday Mark is checking out the store in Kenosha, then we're driving to two other locations near Milwaukee, and then we're heading to Madison. It'll be a pretty crazy day. I don't really know what Ry and I will be doing while Mark is checking out the stores and doing his interview...but I'm sure we'll figure out something. 

thats pretty much all the updates I have right now. Hope everyone is doing well this week!

Feeling motivated today.

So today during my extremely boring stat class I got to thinking about the mess my house has been. You know its bad when a friend surprises you and while looking at the disaster of JUST the living room she laughs and says "you don't usually live like this do you?", yea.. thats bad and embarrassing.

 So I get home today to Mark playing WoW and I say "I want to clean and organize today", about 3 mins later he had a headache and was asleep on the couch (convenient right?), I think he thought I would forget about wanting to clean but I didn't, as he slept I took apart Ryland's crib (it's not like he's uses it anyways), packed all the baby stuff that I don't use, and went through all my junk drawers.. 

Mark woke up for his interview (which I think went well) about an hour and a half later and helped me move our furniture so that our living room is more open-its awesome by the way!!. I dropped baby clothes, and random crap I found off at the Salvation Army (which was a new experience and I don't know if i'll donate to them again, I'm thinking I should try goodwill instead). Overall a pretty productive day, we still have a lot to do (mostly our bedroom and the many many loads of laundry and the kitchen)

I'm feeling pretty good.. maybe this weekend the entire house will look good! 

he's on the move

It's sad but true, Mr. Ryland has become semi-mobile. It makes me sad that he's growing up so quickly. 

Sunday morning he rolled off the bed,  I nearly died. Luckily, as odd as it is, Mark had recently broke the bed (he sat on it and it collapsed) so we are currently sleeping on a mattress on the floor so the fall wasn't too bad, but I was freaking out because he could have seriously hurt himself by hitting his head on the nightstand or something. He was scared but no wounds this time-lucky us! This new found fear of mine caused me to grab his mattress from the crib i've never used and put it on the floor next to our bed, we surrounded it with "padding" so a) he wouldn't get stuck in between the mattress and his little bed and b) I'm freaked out he is going to suffocate so we had to proof it for that as well. Here's a picture of our little set up for him. The last few nights he's started out in his "bed" and moved back up with us around 1 or 2 in the morning. He actually LOVES his little set up, as soon as we put him down he goes nuts! its adorable.

Tonight we put him down and I thought he was asleep, I heard him talking so I sent Mark in to get him (I was busy reading the drama of mamadrama at the moment), Mark said "hes not making any noise, he's fine" about 2 mins later I swore I heard him again so we went to check it out, he had wiggled all the way past the mattress and under a pillow to the floor the sneaky kid. He was upset because he got stuck mid-wiggle. We quickly reconfigured the layout so I think we're good.

I'm not going to lie, its pretty cute seeing how excited he gets when he squirms and gets something that he's been eyeing. He looks up at us and has this HUGE smile on his face like "look what I did mom". My son is adorable. Its a fact.

AMA wants to BAN homebirth?

I have to type quickly but wanted to post a link from CrunchyDomesticGoddess so people could see that the AMA is attempting to BAN homebirths.. I just don't get it. I did not have a homebirth but i'm not sure why the AMA would have an issue with them unless they are concerned about losing money. Irritating.

Moving anxiety..

I could have moving anxiety because I don't know where we're moving yet, Or it could be because I don't know how to tell my parent's we're moving, I don't know what we're going to do with our condo here, and I hate packing..

Mark applied yesterday and already has his first interview lined up for Milwaukee, WI. To me, thats insane. I guess St. Louis is a definite possibility too. On one hand though, I'm SO excited to get out of Ames. For the most part, this place drives me nuts (Although I've finally found someone that I'd actually want to spend my time with), I'm ready for a big city with lots to do with Ryland. This move is going to be the first "big step" for our family. I know that sounds wierd because we've took a huge step having Ryland but currently we live in a condo that is co-owned by my parents and so moving starts our clean slate. We'll be officially on our own and I can't wait for that. We need to be independent and start our life as a family.

I am always exciting about things but always over-think everything and make myself anxious and nervous. Right now I have a knot in my stomach thinking i'm going to have to find an affordable place that I want to live in! We find out probably next week when and where we'll end up..

kind of off topic (ok.. really off topic)
Mamadramauncensored is REDICULOUS. Today I've found out that there is a little clique of women that can't stand me on on my BB, no clue how their little rant even started, a lot of thier information is not true and really I don't care that people don't like me or my opinions but it does irk me a bit because I'm not quite sure what I did to tick people off so much. But eh, thats life. Not everyone is going to like what you have to say. OH well.. Had to add them since reading that damn site has taken up a lot of time today.

its been a while..

So I haven't posted in a few weeks, heres what I've been up to :

I started summer school at Iowa State, I've been insanely busy, in my acct class I have a quiz everyday and homework every day as well. My stat class so far is a piece of cake, I wish I had a better memory- I swear I did all the same stuff my frosh yr of high school which is crazy if you think about it. Pretty sad that as a college student you're not learning anything new.

Rylands been going to a at-home daycare for a few hours a day while i'm in school.. I'm not a big fan of the people hes staying with. The only reason I actually am ok with leaving him there is I know they treat my son well, whenever he sees the couple that watch him he gets a big smile on his face and I figure he wouldn't be ok going with them if he didn't like them.. but to Mark and I they seem to have a bit of an attitude problem when it comes to us.. I don't know if they are like this with everyone or just us because we're young and whatnot. For example, my class starts at 840 so we drop him off at 8 so I can make it to school on time and on most days Mark drives me. Last week I took the bus to school and Mark dropped of Ryland because he had to meet someone at work early, I guess he just kinda handed him off and said he'd be back in a few hours because the lady who watches him, I'll call her "s", gave mark a whole little talk about how they didn't like that we just drop him off and don't have a relationship with them and they don't want to watch him if thats how we're going to be (mind you, when I pick him up I chat so its just when Mark was dropping him off that they didn't like it).. so anyways they half yelled at him for 20 mins (he ended up being late for his apt at work with a client) -who does that? Seriously, if we had time to chat in the AM we prob would drop him off later right?

I prefer that if Mark is home in the morning, Ryland stays with him until I get home, to me that just makes sense (why have a stranger watch my son when he could be spending quality time with his dad, right?) well this one morning Mark told me he was going to drop off Ryland so he could have some alone time.. I said fine but that morning Mark and Ryland fell back asleep on the couch together so I called S and told her that I didn't think Ryland would be in because Mark and he had fallen asleep on the couch, and if he did come it would be in the late morning.. well Mark had to run to work ( yet again) so he just dropped off Ryland and said he'd be back in an hour or so to get him, S ripped him a new one saying that I had called and said Ryland wouldn't be in at all and their daycare was not a place to just drop off a kid for an hour (I don't quite get why she'd be ticked that he was there since we're shelling out $$ to her anyways )..I just feel like there have been a lot of incidents like that and it frusterates me.

Marks been trying to get a promotion, but we'd have to move out of state, which i'm actually excited about. He's looking in Wisconsin but really it could be anywhere from WA to NC. We've already decided as a family that at the end of this sem I'm going to drop school again, for a few reasons 1) financially it doesn't make sense for Ryland to be in daycare, and if I got a job i'd pretty much be PAYING for daycare, I can't justify working to pay for someone to take care of my child ALL DAY just so I get a degree 2) I miss Ryland while i'm at school and even though everyone says its good for me to have a break from him I don't agree and I don't like it 3) If we move, which is around an 80% chance, I'd have to leave school anyways and re-find a sitter and move into a home and everything else... The only thing is i'm terrified of the reaction my parents are going to have (yes, i'm married with a child and still fear the wrath of my parents) they are so happy and keep saying how I can't put my life on hold and i'm getting my act together (they were not happy about me having a child so young), part of me says wow i'm a huge disapointment as a child and the other part of me says i'm doing whats best for my child and my family which sits way better with me.

As for Ryland, my litte man is sitting up.. not for long periods of time somewhere between 5-10 seconds on average (last night we had a fluke of like 3 mins). Its so sad, hes growing up so fast already.. soon he'll be crawling around and talking to us, i'm going to miss my cuddly boy. Hes even grown out of his carseat!! Mark and I are driving to BRU (babies R us) to pick up a bigger seat, its so wierd to think that hes already out of an infant carrier. Today we did his 4 month check up, hes 18lbs and 26 inches. I was worried about telling the doc that I was going to do a delayed vac schedule but he was completely fine with it and it went great, I can def tell this time that Ryland is going to do a lot better than he did last time!

We did take him to his cardiologist and they found more problems but this post is already FAR too long. So I'm done writing for now.