ugh, i'm sick of being HUGE

Being huge and pregnant is one thing. Its no fun but its something you learn to accept because you're carrying your child. Post-pregnant bodies however are not easily accepted. I don't understand the women that talk about how they LOVE their bodies. I understand the badge of honor with the stretchmarks, I understand that this is what our bodies look like because we gave birth, I even would do it all over again because I love my son more than anything but no, I don't LOVE my body- I HATE IT!

I just bought size 16 jeans!!! How the heck did I go from an 8 (which I wasn't happy with) to a 16!? and even in the 14 (which by the way goes up to my belly button) you can see fat sticking out in EVERYTHING I wear. I am now always in a hoodie, or I don't leave my house. I think no one should look like a muffin top coming out of their pants, its just disgusting. I gained 40 lbs while I was pregnant, 20 was gone in the first 2 weeks, so 20 lbs heavier than I was 12ish months ago and i'm wearing jeans twice as big and I have fat hanging EVERYWHERE!

bleh, its just so upsetting..i'm sick of feeling this way..